Wedding Blog

I think I may be more stressed out than I thought. I don’t feel stressed and I work very well under pressure. In fact, I do my best work under pressure, and I thrive on it. But apparently, all the stuff in my life right now is causing me stress. My dentist told me that I cracked a filling last month because I grind my teeth at night. Teeth grinding is a sign of stress, and I never used to do it before.

And now, I’m having nightmares all the time. Last night’s dream was nothing compared to the one two nights ago, so I wasn’t at all panicky when I woke up. But it still wasn’t good.

It’s a few days before my wedding, and one of the executives at my work wants to invite herself. I somehow can’t say no, and before I know it, her entire family is invited to my wedding (ex husband, and 2 kids). I’m collecting all of the names of the people who are coming, and it turns out to be over 110 people, which is way over what I had budgeted for. Luckily my venue makes all of the accommodations.

My venue, is no longer my venue. My wedding is now taking place in a very large conference room - one of those conference centers in a hotel. There is a podium and a large screen in the front of the room and I am sitting with the executive with her family. At first things are OK, but then her ex-husband starts asking me questions on the mike. I am drunk in my dream so I can barely understand him.

Then I realize that my family is not there. Not a single one of them. I start panicking and wondering where they are. I go outside of the conference room to find them. They are not there. They have already missed the ceremony because it’s reception time. I walk back into the conference room, and there is absolutely no music playing. People look so bored. So I scream out “can we get some music in here!!?” Really cheesy music starts playing and I start dancing. A few people join me, but half heartedly.

Finally, my entire family walks in 2 hours late. The dinner has already been served, and there are may 15 people left at the wedding. Everyone had left because it was so boring.

This is when I wake up. To be honest, I am terrified that no one will have fun at my wedding. I still haven’t picked song lists for the DJ and I know everyone has totally different taste in music. I don’t want anyone thinking that my wedding was boring.

I don’t know why I am having these nightmares all of the sudden, because I really haven’t done any planning this week. Maybe it’s the guilt of not doing anything…..hmmmm.

Either way, tonight, I am hoping that I have a good dream. I don’t think I can take anymore drama in my head.