I just had a horribly vivid dream that Mr. Peony had cheated on me with several different girls. I woke up covered in sweat, with half-moon crevices neatly dug into my palms by my nails because my fists were clenched so tightly. I was tempted to wake up Mr. Peony but I knew that it was just a dream.
I continued to think about the dream well after I woke up and I asked myself what I would do if Mr. Peony had cheated on me now, during our engagement. Would I cancel the wedding and break up with him? Probably. But the more I think about it, the harder it must be….not only due to the wedding cancellation, but because of the emotional attachment and investment on my part. I actually began to sympathize with the women who decide to stay in their marriages after their spouse had cheated.
I remember reading once that infidelity can actually make a relationship stronger because it really makes you question why you were together in the first place. But would you chance it? Or would you pick up everything and leave?
I’ve had friends that would always say they’d leave right away if they were ever cheated on, but I have to say they all stayed. It’s hard to say what you’d do unless you actually find yourself in the situation.
Luckily I’ve never been cheated on but I think I could forgive…. I could just never forget. I don’t think I could live with it because of my ocd - life would be hell!