Wedding Blog

{read part one here}
{read part two here}

Honestly, I did enjoy my shower for the most part. It was lovely to see everyone in one place (and wearing pink!), and in such high spirits. However, I was really, really, REALLY uncomfortable being the centre of attention for such a sustained length of time. Having everyone looking at me (and laughing when I spilled food on my dress) was such an awkward feeling—I wanted to hide, but where do you hide when all eyes are on you?

I felt such pressure to be a good hostess that day; to greet everyone when they arrived, to get them drinks, to make small talk. Little things like that seem huge when you have to do it for 30 different people. I’ve always been a very shy individual—I prefer being alone or with close friends or relatives, rather than being in big groups. At the same time though, I am quite bossy, and love to lead rather than follow… an odd combination, I know. What usually happens to me in large social situations, then, is this:

I overact my way out of it:

“Ooh! Such lovely wrapping paper! I’ve never seen such beautiful wrapping paper before!”

“Oh, a gift for me? You shouldn’t have!” *blush*

“This is the sweetest gift I’ve ever received!”

… and I chatter incessantly out of sheer fright:

“Wow, I didn’t know Merlot wine vinegar existed! I can’t wait to try it out at home… I have this recipe and it uses vinegar and it’s really good and I like to have it when… blah, blah, blah…”

I can’t help it. If I’m on a stage it works fine. The audience in the back can see me pantomiming. But at the shower, I felt like I was a caged animal on display. Please don’t misinterpret me—I loved my shower, my guests, and all of the gorgeous and thoughtful gifts—I just felt incredibly uncomfortable almost the whole time. Now I’m worried that I’ll put on a repeat performance at the wedding reception. With all of those guests (many of whom I don’t know) watching us, I’m afraid that my candid wedding photos will turn out like this one:

“Hey, how do ya tie this darn thing on?”

Miss Shortcake: (nervous) girl clown at your service!

Did your bridal shower make you nervous or did you relish in the attention?