Weddingbee Blog

Hello, hive! We’ve been back from Mexico since late last Tuesday and I figure it’s about time for me to get back to blogging. I haven’t edited any of our photos from Montana or Mexico yet because I’ve been very busy getting our apartment in order and organizing my life in all the good little ways that were neglected during wedding planning. It’s a hectic time, but in a way, also very cleansing and soothing. I feel calmer than I have in months, and quite satisfied at what we’ve accomplished.

As for my fears about our wedding not being the “happiest day of our lives”?

Well, I wouldn’t say they were COMPLETELY unfounded, but there really was no reason to worry. Everyone had a wonderful time, and we, though overwhelmed and extremely socially occupied, didn’t have to worry about a thing, thanks to our wonderful coordinators at Katalin Green Design. I don’t know if “happiest” would really describe my mood that day, however… it was all such a blur that I almost felt I was barely there. The day from 10AM to 12AM went by so fast that I had to ask myself at the end of it if our wedding had really happened. It was a wonderful cacophony of sounds, a montage of happy smiles, hugs, and handshakes, and I was so overwhelmed by it all that I was only half-present for all of it.

It isn’t unusual for me to feel this way when I’m overstimulated. In fact, I was expecting it. What I often experience when I’m part of a big crowd (i.e. party, conference, theme park, wedding) or the center of attention, is the sensation that all my emotions blur together, the good and the bad, into a sort of seething mass. I feel for a time like my body is just humming with physical, auditory, and visual stimulation. It’s a nice high, while it lasts, but ultimately I get exhausted very, very fast. Our wedding day was a bit different, because all of the energy was so positive that I didn’t feel the need to retreat into a corner, but it was still complete sensory overload.

That’s why it’s important for people like me to have photos! They help me remember the details of the day that I didn’t absorb. They help me recall the emotion that shone through my face. They help me reconstruct memories that I glossed over. They help me feel like I was really there. I think I’d like video similarly, but unfortunately a videographer wasn’t in our budget. Here’s the next best thing… a little photo collage from Piknik Studios. Some of the photos are from my last post, and many are new. Here’s just a few more details to whet your appetite. I’ll be back soon with more!