Wedding Blog

Hey everyone, remember me? *waves sheepishly* Hope you’re having a happy holiday!

I’m sorry to have been so incommunicado since my last post. I’ve been in Chicago, which is super fun and exciting, but has provided precious little downtime in which to sit and organize my thoughts, much less write about them. But, I’m feelin’ the sentimental New Years Eve-ness today, and wanted to throw in one last post for 2008.

Each year around this time, I evaluate my accomplishments, missteps, goals, dreams and overall satisfaction level so that I can get my focus up and look toward my new year. I’m a real sap about new beginnings and possibility, and firmly believe in the law of attraction (aka you gotta recognize before ya realize), so I love to take some time and reevaluate my path, formulate goals, and put forth positive energy toward the new year.

Looking back at the past year is really interesting, because some things developed in my life that were unexpected, and have offered more opportunity and satisfaction than I ever imagined. Previous goals fell away and were replaced with new ones. My path went deliciously off course and I took a fork in the road which has led me to a new and un-navigated terrain. In short, it was a year of becoming.

First, I became a bride.

Yes, I got “engaged” in 2007, but in 2008 I really felt what it is to be a bride-to-be. It’s amazing how easily this identity becomes a major part of who we, as women, are. It’s a common bond, worthy of squeals and tears and hours of dedication, research and planning. I love being a bride!

Next, I became a writer. Writing this blog, and my script, and various other articles/assignments has quickly blossomed into a passion worth deviating from my normal path, and feels more comfortable on me than a cozy pair of sweatpants. I’ve always loved to write, even as a kid, but this is the year it has manifested into a real part of who I am and who I want to be.

Lastly, I became proactive. This one is much more esoteric, but no less true for that. I feel that this year, I have really begun to own up to life and take solid responsibility in a way that makes me feel much more grown-up than ever before. I realize that I am in charge and if I want to affect change, I must take the reigns and make it happen. No more sitting around hoping for opportunity to find me… I’m out there fighting for it and carving a path every day.

Looking back at the goals I set for myself in 2008, I can see how much I’ve changed this year. Now, as I consider what to focus on in 2009, I feel much more prepared and excited than ever.

Beyond the New Year factor, I’ve always had it in my mind that by the time I got married, I’d have certain things in my life settled, so I’d better get crackin’ before the wedding! Whether in matters of the mind, body, spirit, career, relationships or lifestyle… and even though some, alright, most of the things I’m tackling are scary, uncomfortable or embarrassing, I’m going to jump in head first, and keep you posted along the way.

So, today I am trying to clean the slate. Forgiving myself for the mistakes I made this year, and in years past. Renewing my love for myself, my family and friends, and my life - vowing to keep actively pursuing happiness, improvement and freedom… and relishing these last 5 months (eeek!) as a bride-to-be.

What resolutions did you make last year that stopped mattering to you? What new ones have you made for 2009? How does being a bride affect your goals and dreams?