Weddingbee Blog

Hello Ladies,

I have been engaged for 15 months now with my wedding coming up in July (about 200 invited). I have really enjoyed the planning process, as I am a planner by nature. I have always enjoyed “small details” and I have had no real stress until about 1 month ago.

I have always been EXTREMELY shy. I am a total introvert and homebody, and all of a sudden the reality of an entire day when I will be the center of attention has me TERRIFIED. I am having problems sleeping, and I can tell my blood pressure has risen. I have always been the girl to shy away from attention, so now I can’t figure out what possessed me to think that just because it’s my wedding, that I would be ok with it?

If my parents hadn’t already fed thousands of dollars into this wedding I would cancel the entire thing and just have a private ceremony with just family and close friends. Obviously, that is an obnoxiously selfish idea (and not really an option), and just because I am anti-social really isn’t an excuse to steal the whole “wedding experience” from my FI, my parents, his mom, and our friends. (Really…I think I would be perfectly fine doing the entire ceremony from behind a blanket blocking everyone from view… yes, I am kidding… kinda.)

I am so excited to marry my FI and I really want to enjoy that day and enjoy the ceremony… I can’t fathom being able to think about anything other than all the people looking at me! And deep down I do want all of our family and friends there to celebrate with us… I just am dreading that all the focus will be on me.

Does anyone have any good advice or pearls of wisdom on how to actually ENJOY my wedding? Something other than, “imagine everyone naked” or “have a few shots beforehand”? (Actually…the shots idea is pretty much my plan at this point.)

Thanks guys!

lilbird

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