Weddingbee Blog

It’s officially March, and we all know what that means—check in time! We’ve now got exactly 7 months until the wedding, and let me just say, this month was pretty much a fail month. That’s right, I’ve been one slackin’ ass bee.

I’m a bit disappointed in myself that I slacked off so badly this month, but—although I don’t like to make excuses—it has been an exceptionally difficult month for Mr. Rainbow and me. Let me explain.

In the past, I’ve never had issues with my weight. It always stayed pretty much the same, and if I wanted to lose a few pounds, it was never too difficult for me. But a little while ago, I started gaining weight, quickly and seemingly uncontrollably, and the worst part was that no matter what I did, it just wouldn’t come off. I know my body, and I know how it works, so I had a funny feeling that there was something medically wrong with me, but no one would believe me, and I had no health insurance to get my suspicions confirmed.

That was until this month.

I got private health insurance a few months back, and finally got a doctor’s appointment on the 2nd of February. Needless to say, my suspicions were confirmed and I was diagnosed with a shitty, albeit fortunately non life-threatening, illness. It’s got a slew of crappy symptoms, one of them being that it’s exceptionally easy to gain weight, but exceptionally difficult to lose it. Fabulous, just what I need before our wedding. Apparently it’s just something you’re born with, it can be controlled through medication, but it can never be cured. Fun, right?

Needless to say, I think I was depressed for a solid 2 weeks. I didn’t want to speak to anyone, do anything, go anywhere. Every time I tried to explain anything about the illness or how I was feeling to my family, I would just sob. The thought that this thing doesn’t just “go away” and that, at the ripe age of 22, I’ll basically have a lifelong battle with my weight and will have to be on meds for the rest of my life really killed my will to do anything. Add that to the stress of wedding planning and recent family drama and I was basically down for the count for the rest of the month.

Anyway, I don’t want to turn this into a pity party, so here we go! I present to you, my chart for the month!

Month 2- March 1, 2010:

• Pounds lost this month: 2
• Pounds lost in total: 9
• How many days I exercised this month: 7
• How many days I didn’t exercise this month: 21
• How many times I “cheated” on my diet: 5 (ack, almost as many days as I worked out!)
• How I’m fitting in my dress: Eh, getting there
• How I’m feeling: Crappy, but motivated to do better this month!
• Notes: Jillian Michaels is starting to annoy me, but her workouts are so awesome I’ll just have to deal with it. Because I slacked off, I’m going to keep doing level 2 until next month. I tried Carmen Electra’s Aerobic Striptease, it was fun, but not much of a work out. It’ll probably be better at a more difficult level.

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Could they have chosen a worse picture of her for the cover?! source

So, yes, I only worked out 7 out of 28 days. Bad Rainbow! Major suckage. On the bright side, I lost 2 pounds from doing the bare minimum, so that’s good. My goal was 5 pounds a month, so add that to the 7 from last month and I’m still pretty much on track. At least that’s what I keep telling myself. And because I know you’re curious, my cheats:

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KFC 3 pc. Chicken Strips Meal - Because when you’re depressed, sometimes you just need some damn fried chicken.

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Cheeseburger and Fries - If there is ever an excuse for a big ol’ burger, it’s Super Bowl Sunday. Don’t hate.

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Buffalo Wings and Chili Cheese Fries - Yes, you also saw this last month. Ugh, it’s Mr. Rainbow’s fault. I will try harder to control his wing urges this month!

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Japanese Teppanyaki - Mr. Rainbow and I went for chop-chop (that’s what I call it) on Valentine’s Day. I wouldn’t generally consider it a cheat because the food isn’t all that bad, but just based on the sheer amount of food they give you, it’s definitely cheating.

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Baskin Robbins Peanut Butter Chocolate Ice Cream- Holy Crap. If I have a guilty pleasure, this is it. It reminds me of being a child in Washington State and my mom taking me to Baskin Robbins in her police car (yes, my mom was a cop - not a traffic cop, a hardcore cop). Comfort food at its yummiest.

As you see, this was not exactly my finest hour, but what can we do but move on? Which is exactly what I intend to do. This month will be better, you’ll see.

Catch up here:

• Ground Zero
• Month 1

Have you ever been thrown off your game by some unexpected circumstances? How did you deal with it? How’s your resolution coming along?