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In my defense, I warned him on the way home from work. I could feel the hormonal rage gushing through my veins, pumping my blood a little too fast. I feel like I’m going to freak out about something, I said. And OH did I.

I had been home for about fifteen minutes, when the crazy started spouting out of me like a geyser. I surveyed my calendar, which was filling up with trips and various appointments and out-of-town visitors, and I felt a lump in my throat.

“How am I supposed to do all this?” I asked, wiping a tear that slipped out. I could almost see him gulp and think, here it comes. “How does any normal person do this!? How can I work full time, plan a wedding, eat healthy, exercise, have a normal social life with family and friends, keep the house in livable condition, volunteer for things at church, and still squeeze in time to do things with you?? I can’t do it all! I have to cancel some things! Like the cake tastings. We have three appointments. Let’s cancel all but one and hope it’s good. I’m sure it will be.”

I held my pen to one of the appointments, ready to scratch a thick line through it. But he placed his hand on my arm, stilling me. “You want to cancel the eating of free cake that will take less than an hour?”

I nodded, smearing tears across my face left and right (all the while mentally asking myself, “Why are you crying?!?). No idea.

“OK,” he agreed. “If you feel the same way tomorrow, I’ll cancel them.”

I didn’t even feel the same way for an hour. Then I was great, back to my normal self, and motivated to get it all done. And while my hysterical reaction was really over the top and, in hindsight, kind of crazy…I think I understand why it happened. The overwhelmingness (trademark pending) of this entire time in our lives is wonderful, but man is it a LOT. While wedding planning, life doesn’t stop and lie down for you. There’s still appointments and menial whatevers left and right. Get up, work, exercise, cook, plan, craft, ahhhhhhhhh.

So, instead of panicking, I’d like to say bravo to all of us. We’re juggling like madmen, fine-tuning our schedules until we rule them instead of the other way around, maintaining our awesome relationships while working, and doing heaven knows what else.

We’re trying our best—in life, in love, in wedding planning—and you know what? We’re nailing it.

Have you had a freak out like this? Tell me about it…I’ll be off getting a Douglas Adams inspired tattoo. Or maybe just a button.

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