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Have you ever seen happy dreamy pictures like these…

Photography by Babylon Productions

Photography by Jennifer Echols Photography / Image via Ottawa Gatineau Wedding Planner

Photography by Luster Studios

Photography by Whitney Lee Photography / Image via Manolo for the Brides

…and mused about how choosing people to stand up with you on your wedding day would be one of the most effortless, joyous parts of the whole planning process? I certainly did. In pictures of other wedding parties it looks like everyone’s relationships are so perfect and easy. I know, I know…pictures don’t tell the whole story. If I’d really thought critically about it, perhaps it would’ve occured to me that couples don’t necessarily automatically know who they want to have in their parties from the moment they get engaged. But at first I didn’t think that.

So, being an overly obsessive researcher bride-to-be, I went looking for some words of wisdom on this whole wedding-party thing. And then I found this post on A Practical Wedding. You truly must go read it right now. No, really—I mean it. Look, I’m even giving you the link again, right…here! Click it!

All righty then. Now that you’re back, here’s my favorite part:

But we, over in indie-wedding-world, have made it even more complicated. Since the myth of matching dresses on matching size-two blond friends doesn’t work for all of us, we’ve created our own indie wedding party myth. We’ve looked at the outsides of other people’s blogg-y weddings, and come up with a story of what the inside of our wedding should feel like. We should all have friends in mismatched outfits that reflect their different, but equally hip personalities. We should have a band of quirky and arty friends, who know each other, and love us exactly the way we are. These friends should be talented (so they can help with the wedding) and generous (they are excited to help with the wedding).

Agh—you got me!! Yes, yes, yes! I thought I was totally going to have that whole indie-wedding thing because I’d seen it done in blogland and I knew I didn’t care about matching outfits or equal numbers or same-gender bridal/groomal parties. Having had a cadre of fabulous gay men as some of my closest friends in college, I’d always assumed I’d have a mixed-gender wedding party. Mr. FW is less extroverted than I am, so maybe I’d have more people stand on my side. And why would I want to pick someone else’s clothes for them when I have a hard enough time picking my own? It all seemed so easy-peasy.

What I didn’t account for in this blissfully happy bubble world was…the reality of my actual relationships.

For starters, many of my friends are unmarried (for personal, political, and logistical reasons).

{Unmarried friends, out on the bay}

{Back when everyone in this picture was actually single}

And then there are the family matters. Mr. FW has possibly the best brother and sister on the planet, and there was never any doubt that they’d stand on his side on our wedding day.

{Mr. FW, Sister S, Brother S}

But my siblings and I are not as close.  We love each other the way family should, but it’s not a… friendly love.  Does that make sense?  My youngest brother and I work really hard at our relationship, but my relationship with our other brother is complicated, which in turn takes it toll on my relationship with my youngest brother.  I worried that if I didn’t ask them to stand on my side, that they’d feel bad being in the crowd and seeing Mr. FW’s sibs up there.  Then I worried that, if they did stand on my side, they’d only be there out of obligation.  And I sure as hell don’t want anyone—friend, family, or otherwise—feeling obligated to participate on our wedding day.

So many mixed emotions! Up next: how I reached a happy resolution.

Has there been any agony involved in that ecstatic process of choosing your wedding party? Do share…