These past few days have been some of the most stressful ones I’ve experienced in this whole wedding-planning stint. I’ve asked the experts (namely my blissfully wedded bee friends) and they tell me that it’s normal to have the cray-cray hit the fan during the home stretch.
It all started with silly little bouts of irritation. The fact that every time I opened up my wedding to-do list, it automatically opened with a version of ‘Word’ that I don’t own, have never owned, and can’t install—so a two second click turns into a minute of frantic cursing, shutting down and reloading. Sounds trivial, I know, but imagine that happening about a thousand times in a row and…well…you get my drift. The fact that after days of organising tables and who was sitting where at the reception, my in-laws decided to change everything around on me. The fact that all my millions of spreadsheets needed to be re-jigged to match the changes, and that I’m inevitably going to forget something, or heaven forbid, someone.
I’m slowly learning to let go of the obsessive compulsive need to have everything fully planned out and organised, but still…for a planner like me, change is hard.
Then there was the music. What was supposed to be the easiest thing for us to decide (ha! easy!) because WE LOVE MUSIC turned into a nightmare. The dinner and dancing stuff was fairly simple (ha! simple!) but finding a father/daughter dance number? I’ll skip the frustration, the hurt feelings and the tears, and focus on the good stuff: we have a dance. It is a beautiful song. It’s slow and sweet and I may cry. But it’s done.
And then today! Today, when I found out that our perfectly planned wedding charity favour pins, weren’t coming. On back-order, not going to make it for the wedding day, 11 days out. Oh em gee. Needless to say there were more tears, frantic emails sent, alternative options searched for, and general fits of panic. It also began to rain today. It’s still raining now. Like, really raining. More rain than I’ve seen in a looooong time. Rain so heavy that I’m now adding ‘Stressing about Weather’ to the top of my insanely long to-do list.
Thankfully, I managed to hunt down someone at the head office of our chosen charity, who dug deep and hunted down the pins/ribbons we needed and therefore saved the day—and for that, this stressed out bride-to-be is super grateful.
I’m sorry if this post, and my recent/upcoming ones end up being crazy ramblings. This blog is a journey, documenting the end to a freaking long wait, and I think it’s only fair that I write as honestly as I’m feeling. While things may be small and insignificant, they’re my feeling—and I want to remember them! I also want to hopefully look back on them after the day is over and think I was ridiculous for sweating the small stuff; that’s the plan, anyway.
I’m learning to remember that these are all little things. And I’m grateful that they are all little things. We can live without favours, if need be. We can have crazy music choices. Every little detail does NOT need to be planned out and documented… it’ll be OK. We’re getting MARRIED!
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