From Wedding Bells to Wanting Out

When it comes to the most breathtaking, heart-moving, tear-inducing moments, the vow exchange is hard to beat. There is nothing quite as beautiful as two people publicly and earnestly professing their love and commitment to one another. In moments like that, I’ve often wondered how a couple could possibly go from saying “I do” to “I want out.” And in my wildest imagination, I never imagined that I’d one day be able to shed light on how exactly that could happen.

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(Source: Orange Turtle Photography)

It didn’t happen overnight. I don’t think it ever does”¦I’m pretty sure no one gets married expecting the marriage to reach a breaking point. We certainly never thought it could happen to us: we loved each other, we had a strong foundation of friendship, and we shared the same values and faith, which we strove to live out each day. Yet, it still happened.

We didn’t start out with huge fights or arguments—those came much later, after the trust in our relationship had already been eroded. Sure, we had a few big stressors that accelerated us down the wrong path. But the real culprit—clandestinely disguised as courtesy, an easygoing nature, or even selfless genuine loving care for the other—crept in, seamlessly becoming routine in the way we related to one another. And that culprit was none other than lack of awareness—of self, of the other, and of the state of our hearts.

We both led incredibly busy lives, with very little free time. We thought our relationship could wait; after all, we’d always be there for each other. We had made it—we were married! But the day to day busy-ness and the focus on work and life turned into a consistent lack of communication. We didn’t realize that we would grow and change, that we still had to work on getting to know each other, staying connected, and pursuing each other.

We were both nice people. We went out of our way to try to be understanding of each other. We didn’t want to cause unnecessary hurt by bringing up certain small things that bothered us. But the trouble came when “not sweating the small stuff” and “being the bigger person” turned into denying our own hearts and sweeping hurts, disappointments, and unmet expectations under the carpet. We didn’t understand that some of the small stuff was actually big.

We always gave each other the benefit of the doubt. We assumed the other person didn’t mean something hurtful. What we didn’t understand was that it wasn’t enough to leave it at a benefit”¦that doing so also left the doubt in there too. And failure to clarify could then turn into unresolved misunderstanding.

For these reasons and many more, within a couple years we found ourselves at a point where our relationship, unbeknownst to us, had become extremely fragile. And when the stressors came (and they always do), we quickly hit a breaking point. We found that we didn’t know each other—we had such different personalities and couldn’t remember why we even married each other. We found that we didn’t trust each other—it felt like we were never there for each other. And we found that we had fallen out of love—there were so many hurts that had accumulated in our hearts that even in spite of our desire to love each other, we had nothing left.

I’ll have to save the story of how we got out of all this for another day, but to take the tone back up a bit (and not leave you all depressed!), I’d like to leave you with a few lessons learned—things that I think could have helped us avoid our situation, that have indeed prevented other couples from getting to that point, and that help us in our present happier times to keep our relationship strong and our love growing.

Don’t stop pursuing each other. Marriage doesn’t mean you’ve arrived at a destination and you’ve made it. Find creative ways to enjoy each other, to persist in wooing each other, and to continue getting to know one another. There’s a quote a famous professor from my alma mater that I love: “Marriage is learning how to love and care for the stranger to whom you find yourself married.” I love it because it starts with that marriage commitment. We inevitably change. Or even if we don’t, there are things we discover later either about ourselves or our partner. Expect the change and love your partner through it and because of it. Keep things exciting by planning dates and fun ways to delight each other’s hearts. Stay connected to each other, so that you’ll be growing together as opposed to growing apart.

Protect your space as a couple. Work, friends, and family have a way of taking over the calendar. While those are all important, prioritizing your marriage means actually making it a priority”¦which means intentionally carving out time for it and saying no to other things sometimes. As a married couple, you are creating and becoming a new family, which becomes your primary family. It was so hard to say no sometimes—to family events where there was a lot of pressure to attend, to friends when we didn’t want to miss out, even to some work events where it felt like it might be limiting to miss out on a happy hour or other relationship/career-building opportunity. Even if your partner understands, your actions imprint what you really think on their hearts and whether they really are what’s most important to you. I’ll likely dedicate a future post to discussing this topic more thoroughly, as this was a big one for us and a huge area of struggle for so many new couples. But to keep it short, relatives will eventually come around (and if they don’t, can you live with that?), friends will understand, and there will always be more opportunities at work. Set your boundaries and prioritize each other.

Talk it out”¦even if it hurts. Loving someone doesn’t mean never making them upset. Communication, or lack thereof, is almost always at the heart of conflict. It may feel unnatural or awkward at first, but it is always better to express what’s on your mind and clarify any areas of potential misunderstanding or conflict. While it helps to be tactful, being direct is way more important. If possible, stick to “I” statements and how your partner’s actions made you feel, rather than accusatory statements. Chances are it was a miscommunication—I can’t tell you how many times I interpreted and received a statement a certain way when the motivation behind the statement was so far removed from it. Even in the middle of trying to work something out, we’d sometimes find that we heard something differently than what the other person meant to say. Clarify, clarify, clarify! And if in fact it wasn’t a miscommunication, it’s always better to have a discussion about it and to address it before it builds up and becomes a much larger issue.

Be direct. I would also add that as romantic as it is and as much as I wish this could be the case, try to recognize that your partner can’t read your mind. I used to think being “soul mates” meant we would be on the same wavelength all the time. While it may sometimes feel like that while dating, you’ll quickly find that marriage is a different ballgame, as we all eventually lose the rose-colored glasses we wore during the honeymoon period of our relationship that likely filtered out the times when we didn’t get it quite right. We each unknowingly brought in so many expectations into our marriage, expectations that we thought our partner would meet. When that inevitably didn’t happen, rather than recognizing it was simply that the other person didn’t know what we were thinking, it instead led to doubt about the other person’s commitment and whether we were right for each other. We now try to be much more direct with each other—even in the simplest of things like what we want to do for dinner or how we want to celebrate a birthday or anniversary. I know it sounds unromantic, but when the honeymoon stage is over and reality sets in, rather than hoping for your partner to always read your mind, help him or her out and just let them know what you’re thinking. It will pay off, because over time they will start understanding you better and “getting” it, keeping the romance alive.

Know each other’s patterns and give each other space. Everyone deals with conflict differently. Some people need to hash out the issues right away; others need some time alone to process through and calm down first. If things get heated, it’s usually good to give each other some space to allow the situation to deescalate first, and then to try to have a more objective discussion when the emotions aren’t running as high. I can’t tell you how many times just simply taking a 20-minute break made all the difference in the tone of the conversation.

And finally, stay vulnerable. The worst thing you can do is to harden up and detach from one another. Even though it’s scary, sometimes sharing your heart helps keep things in perspective. Apologize to each other. Own up when you make mistakes. And be honest about when it hurts. We get angry because it’s really masking our hurt sometimes. But if you are honest about your hurt, it helps your partner see past the anger and stay in touch with their own heart too.

Well, that’s a lot. I could go on and on, but these are a few key things that we always try to keep in mind and have helped us immensely, even in the present day when issues come up. These are much easier said than done”¦just as wedding vows are much easier said than kept. But the habitual act of putting these things into practice, of choosing to work things out, of sticking it out day after day even in the hardest moments—these are what truly say “I do” when it comes down to it”¦and that’s beautiful.

For those of you who have been in long-standing relationships, how about you? What are some of your best tips for keeping the communication lines open?

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Mrs. Daffodil

Location:
Los Angeles
Wedding Date:
May 2014
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    mrscvsomeday 162 posts, Blushing bee @ 8:49 am

    Wow, this is beautifully written, and such great advice!
    I think in the 2.5 months we’ve been married, the biggest hurdle we’ve already faced is busyness. You’re right – obligations from family and church and work and friends press in, and it takes conscious effort to actually prioritize our marriage. I also love the point about “giving the benefit of the doubt,” and how that still leaves the doubt. Wise words!!!

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    mstreasure 1655 posts, Bumble bee @ 9:04 am

    This should be required reading for everyone who is engaged or married. Thank you so much for your honesty and for giving me a lot of things to remember over the years. I just emailed this to Mr. T!

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    msscooter 110 posts, Blushing bee @ 9:09 am

    This is a great post! I am bookmarking this one and I will def. refer to it in the future! Can’t wait to hear how the story continues!

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    msmongoose 264 posts, Helper bee @ 9:21 am

    Wonderful, wonderful post with excellent advice. Thank you for being so brace and open about your relationship issues–I’m eagerly looking forward to reading how you guys successfully overcame them. The advice you give definitely sounds like the smart way to overcome many relationship issues.

    Since I’m recently married, we are still in the “honeymoon” phase, however your first point of “Don’t stop pursuing each other” really stuck out to me because after almost 8 years of being together, I find that as one of the biggest priorities in maintaining and fun, healthy relationship.

    Will definitely be sharing this with the Mr.!

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    jetsetter 535 posts, Busy bee @ 9:30 am

    Wow, amazingly honest and sincere – a great read! Thank you so much for sharing this, it’s so important to keep that perspective. I love this, thanks again!

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    bridesmomma 457 posts, Helper bee @ 9:43 am

    This has got to be the best Weddingbee post ever…Every single point is right on! I am looking forward to reading more!

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    genie 723 posts, Busy bee @ 9:45 am

    This is a great post! It’s so honest and heartfelt, and I will definitely be keeping it to remind myself of these things when we’re having a hard time.

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    cakeyp 2562 posts, Sugar bee @ 11:03 am

    Thank you so much for writing this.

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    LaughLines 346 posts, Helper bee @ 12:08 pm

    Thank you for this post! I have often wished Weddingbee were “Marriagebee” – more about what it takes to have a healthy and successful marriage. Our first year has had its ups and downs and I know there are more ahead so these tips are so helpful. Thank you for sharing!

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    penguin 3472 posts, Sugar bee @ 12:12 pm

    This post is so powerful, I don’t even know where to begin. Especially this rings true: “Talk it out…even if it hurts.” Something I really need to work on as a friend/partner. Thank you for sharing your raw story with us…it’s so good to have you back!

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    Mrs. Y, Guest @ 12:14 pm

    Thanks so much for this advice! I am also going to bookmark this for the future–we’re about 2 weeks away from the big “I Do”…

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    sword 1029 posts, Bumble bee @ 12:17 pm

    Wow, great stuff. Thanks for sharing your insights and your personal struggles. Communication is so key, I agree.

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    shida_girl 32 posts, Newbee @ 12:26 pm

    What wonderful perspective! So many people just don’t get this about marriage. Having just celebrated my 20th anniversary (my weddingbee.com date is the date of my sister’s wedding I was helping with, not my wedding date!), I cannot agree more. The man I am married to now is not the man I married 20 years ago and I’m not the same either. Marriage is a continuous learning process that takes effort. We have to learn to love every version of our mates, just as they try to do the same for us. As we change and grow, we have to regularly work on accepting and loving and appreciating the journey. It is when this process stops that problems can creep in. Well said Daffodil, well said.

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    cleesmile 104 posts, Blushing bee @ 12:34 pm

    Thank you for sharing this! All the points you made are more important than all the other parts of putting together a wedding, at the end of the day! So glad to have you back for these posts!

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    Lisa, Guest @ 1:01 pm

    Great Piece to read!!! I just recently was made aware of a book by Gary D Chapman called “The 5 Love Languages: The Secret to Love that Lasts.” This is a MUST READ for everyone!!! It helps identify, understand and learn to speak their spouses primary “love language” Sounds a little cheesy, I know, but It really is a great book that is a very easy read. It helps you learn that the way you give off love to others may not be the way that others perceive you showing them love.

    Another book by the same author is “Things I Wish I’d Known Before We Got Married.” This shows how people spend more time preparing for their wedding day (i.e. the little details & decorations) rather than preparing for marriage. It helps one to learn skills of working together and based on your “love language,” spoken about above, you forgive and apologize in different manners.

    I bought the two off of amazon as a set for a discounted price & downloaded to my Kindle app.
    These are Two GREAT books that you should read & encourage your significant other to read as well so you may have a chance of being on the same page with quite a few things!!!!

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    mswaterfall 1403 posts, Bumble bee @ 1:09 pm

    What an amazing post! Thank you for making yourself vulnerable to us and sharing such a deep, personal part of yourself with us. It`s so refreshing to get a different perspective on what comes after. Through wedding planning, I always tried to look beyond the wedding day and into the marriage that came after, and I think many people forget that the wedding is not the finish line, but just another check point.

    While we just got married 2 months ago, we`ve been a couple for 10 years now and have definitely faced our share of hurdles. I`m so happy you guys overcame these difficulties and came out stronger on the other side. I will definitely share with Mr. W

    Good to have you back.

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    islanddreamer, Guest @ 1:09 pm

    I absolutely felt you read my last letter to my partner. I cannot believe that you used the same phrases as “being the bigger person, giving the benefit of the doubt” but most importantly “not sweating the small stuff” because that is what really causes the big problems. Thank you for this blog, I will be sure to follow up on your next one. This article reinforced what we had to learn the harder way

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    cola 2827 posts, Sugar bee @ 1:19 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing this. Wonderful post, and I really appreciate your openness.

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    toucan 1326 posts, Bumble bee @ 1:27 pm

    Randomly stopped by and noticed a familiar moniker and had to read… it’s a very powerful and wonderful post — beautifully written. Thanks for taking the time to share it. As a fellow bee married for 5 years — these are wonderful reminders and great advise for all engaged, newlywed and long-time married couples! xo

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    Pam, Guest @ 1:30 pm

    i appreciate this post, it was very honest and real. I look forward to the diary of your journey to get to this point.

    I’d like to also add, say complimentary things to your spouse often, and thank them for things that they do, even small things, like getting you a cup of water. Being appreciated is huge, and makes you feel like a true partner in the relationship, and not taken for granted. This will especially come to play if and when you have children, not only is it harder to find the time and energy to focus on each other, but it also is an example to your children as well of how to be respectful and thankful for each other. Also, find humor with each other and together–I find that our relationship seems stronger when we are laughing together, that my spouse is not only my spouse, but my best friend too, that we can tell each other anything about, but can also make each other laugh.

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    love108 3979 posts, Honey bee @ 1:43 pm

    Thank you for writing this. I can’t wait to show my FI. I should print it out and keep it on our wall! I am so sorry you had to go through these things, though I thought you just had a vow renewal! I’m so sorry.

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    Magpie86 466 posts, Helper bee @ 2:47 pm

    Another person chiming in to stay thank you for sharing your story, and helping so many other couples! Looking forward to hearing how you worked things out, and wishing you the best!

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    Charring, Guest @ 4:18 pm

    Thank you for this wonderfully written post. Will save and show my husband!

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    mspony 9265 posts, Buzzing Beekeeper @ 7:45 pm

    Thank you so much for sharing this, these are all such important things to know, learn, and practice for our relationships.

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    realme07, Guest @ 10:33 pm

    As a celebrant i read through these wedding bee’s to keep up with what is happening with brides and couples currently. I found your story very moving and will add some of these point (which have real worth) into my new ceremonies as points for the couples to ongoing’ly consider as part of their new couple journey. thank you again

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    Miss_N 21 posts, Newbee @ 12:50 am

    Thank you for sharing your personal story.

    Not long ago when I read about that there are more than 300 bees who have shared their stories on WeddingBee, I couldn’t help but think about a silly/stupid statistical fact – wonder how many of these beautiful ladies are still in the marriage they were hoping for?

    Whilst I really hope that all of them are, I see this community as a “pseudo micro version” of our society and that the divorce rate should apply here too??
    It made me sad to think that some of these lovely ladies and their husbands who look so gorgeous on many photos might have had their dreams crashed few years down the track post wedding.
    Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy reading about all the exciting and inspiring wedding planning/recap posts, but I most certainly appreciate your input about on what comes after the glitter and honeymoon.
    So glad to hear that your story has a happy ending!

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    prairiedog 455 posts, Helper bee @ 10:36 am

    thank you for writing this. “stay vulnerable” has to be some of the best marriage advice i’ve ever read…and it is NOT articulated enough to couples. i think it’s also good to stay vulnerable *about* your relationship with your trusted friends and family (while not betraying your partner’s trust, of course). the main reason we had a big wedding ceremony (as opposed to something small or private, which i kind of wanted, as an introvert) was to be witnessed by all the people who will nudge us back to each other if we have a hard time. i have to remind myself that, if that day comes, i need to ask for that support.

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    Grace, Guest @ 1:30 pm

    So honest. So much needed to be read/heard. For us, the true test was parenting – a constant reminder that despite being busy with two kids, time together is healthy for our marriage and our family.

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    jacofblues 1468 posts, Bumble bee @ 5:00 pm

    I can see you put in a lot of time and effort into writing this and I can see it wouldn’t have been easy to write, so I have a lot of respect for you for sharing! I agree with the I statements, my husband and I are both really defensive and therefore we take things really personally and then fire up about it! We are trying to learn to clarify that its how we feel as compared to what they’ve done. Its a balancing act really.

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    icanhearyousmile 1626 posts, Bumble bee @ 3:07 pm

    Thank you for writing this. :) I sent it to FI. One of our biggest obstacles is communication (I’m the person that has to hash it out right freaking now and he’s the kind that has to go away for 20 minutes to brood). xD I think this will be helpful. I can’t wait to read more. :)

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    avocado 1538 posts, Bumble bee @ 4:58 pm

    This is a really beautiful, well-written post. Thank you so much for sharing with us. I kind of want to sit down with my husband and talk about your ideas and see where we stand 5 years in.

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