Disclaimer…this post is weird. It is mostly a brain dump, with the usual “give me your advice!” at the end. (I’m nothing, if not consistent!)
While I’ve been engaged for a year and a half, and planning this wedding for the past 10 months, and it still sometimes feels surreal. My job revolves around planning someone else’s life, so it’s easy to just plan and kind of “forget” that this is MY WEDDING! (!!!!) Like, OMG… I AM GETTING MARRIED IN THE DOMINICAN REPUBLIC! That is so exciting. And I can’t believe it’s my life!
I seriously can’t wait to marry Mr. BC. He is the best person I know, and he’s going to be a great husband. But, to be perfectly honest, the idea of a wedding ceremony in front of people, and being the center of attention (and not to mention doing all of this internationally) is kind of overwhelming. I have a really difficult time when I feel overwhelmed, and I struggle with anxiety. When I am overwhelmed and anxious my brain kind of shuts off and goes on autopilot.
I am struggling with the idea of how to really enjoy all of the love and attention showered on me, but still stay completely in the moment. I know the day is going to be a total whirlwind and pass by in the blink of an eye. How do you savor every moment and stay present? I really, really don’t want to be on auto-pilot on my wedding day.