A few weeks ago we were talking with friends who got married about a year ago. The topic moved to weddings, and the former groom said, “You won’t have time to be nervous. It all just goes by so quickly.”
“You don’t get it,” I replied. “When I think about the wedding itself I actually start to feel panicky, just sitting here.”
It’s true. I think I have a touch more anxiety than the usual pre-wedding jitters. Mr. Dragon is the same way. Neither of us can really start thinking about what it’s going to be like to walk down the aisle/wait at the front without having to shut it down immediately because we start feeling terror.
I really am excited about our wedding, as is Mr. Dragon. It’s just that as the days tick by, everything is becoming a lot more real instead of that nice, fuzzy abstract image of wedded bliss.
It’s not that we don’t want to get married, it’s just that there are going to be SO MANY PEOPLE staring at me. At least, that’s my problem. Mr. Dragon gets nervous when he’s stuck in a situation he can’t gracefully duck out of, and one can’t really gracefully duck out of a wedding when one is the groom. And now I’m at the point where I’m anxious about what to do if he faints from anxiety and we’re stuck in an anxiety cycle.
Another problem for me? I’m an introvert. I like small groups, quiet get-togethers, controlled scenes where I’m not bombarded by fifty people trying to hug me, talk to me, or otherwise engage with me. How the heck do introverts tackle weddings?!
I’m afraid that, with all the people to see and things to do before the wedding—and during the wedding—that I’m going to melt down into a puddle of leave-me-alone and hyperventilate. I’m really hoping that blissful bride feeling takes over before that can happen.
So, hive, can you help me out? Are there any fellow panicked people/introverts out there who successfully made it through their own wedding without fainting or hiding in the bathroom? I’m willing to entertain any and all coping mechanisms. Even writing this entry has me feeling a bit panicked!